Button Mushroom

It is time.

2011-05-21T11:02:00.003+09:00

You refused to give in from the beginning even though you know it is going to turn out badly. Somehow after doing it, you know how badly it hurts and you really just want everything to go back to normal.

I refused to give you up in the beginning so I asked and I begged, with that little hope blinking like a lighthouse in a wide dark sea. I knew it wasn't going to happen like I hoped for, but I refused to give up, I put my faith in you. But there you were, putting all of those aside, crushing everything I had in you. You then asked and you begged, just for everything to go back to normal. It is miserable living like that everyday, I don't like it either so I came up with a one last chance, I told you.

You were hurting so badly, I feel awful for you. I hope it all stop immediately just so you would stop hurting. You heard me telling you bout the last chance that you could make it up to all of this, you told me you would do it and that it seemed to be the only choice left.

It was then still early to catch a bus, train, flight, etc.. whatever that would bring you home to me. I refused to see that you, somehow purposely delay the time by sitting there, doing nothing. You told me you were checking the flight and trying to book it, but on the other hand, you were just sitting there. Obviously time didn't quite matter to you. But I didn't give up, deep within me, I still hoped that you'd do it for me this time. At least this time, after knowing how much it hurts, you'd do it. At that time, I trusted you again, I knew you'd make the right choice this time. You told me you're going back to pack up everything and you went. Later it was way past 2 in the morning, you were nowhere to be heard of.

I tried to reach you, I told myself that it's too late to do anything, maybe I should tell you that you can come home in the morning, I'll wait for you. I was very worried that you were already out somewhere, chasing after whatever that would bring you home. I was so worried that I couldn't stop thinking, if whatever were to happen to you, how am I going to live with myself?

I called you in the morning once I woke up. Guess what? I just made a fool out of myself the whole night. The whole night when I thought you were out doing things for me, finally. You were just sleeping. You told me that you were coming home, you told me that you were going to pack your stuff. I trusted you. Truth is, you were again just putting thoughts in my mind, you were again just there doing nothing, hoping that I'd change my mind on the things that you want to do. In the end, you lied, you were lying on the bed instead of packing. I know you were not feeling well, but if you really had the heart to come home, wouldn't you be anywhere else but, your bed?

It is not very nice of me to force you like that, in a way. I know you're halfway trying to finish up your things. I might not be happy if you told me that, you know that. Instead, you chose to lie to me this time like you always have, you manipulate your way out. Because you know that I care, you used that to your advantage. You tell me one thing, and you do another. I guess this time again, I hoped that you would finally do something for me, just for me. Just this time, you would put down your own things and give in.

I was wrong

It was never the last chance,

I could never not want you.

But it is time.

Time I learn to let go.

Time I be stern with myself.

Do You?

2011-05-19T17:39:00.002+09:00

You know how when your phone rings and your heart starts to pump harder, and you wish that whatever it is, it is from 'that person'?

That's the beginning of every relationship.

What about when you're already in the relationship for some time? Does your heart still pump as hard whenever your phone rings? Do you still stare at your phone, hoping that it'd ring? Do you still open up your inbox and stare at it, impatiently wait for the new message to come in just so you can read it immediately? Or, do you still look at the same message again and again?

Let's not talk about the time when you're in a middle of an important discussion or an argument, let's just say, the daily chit-chats. It doesn't matter what it is, when you constantly still do all the above (previous paragraph), you know that same feeling you felt from the beginning of the relationship has never been changed.

Normally, people don't do it anymore. They get used to each other.
Somehow, they think that it's okay and that it'll still be okay to reply later/call back later.
Somehow, they think the other person wouldn't mind and that, it is '~~No Big Deal~~'.

The word, 'Busy' is often used. People assume their significant others should understand. Hence, by the end of the day, they's still be right where they are, just waiting with a big smile on their faces. Or not, they'd still forgive and let it go.

Is that ~~true~~?

Sometimes all these little facts actually show how someone in a relationship 'walk'. It shows how important you take your partner, or how less and less important the person had become to you, as you both go down the 'relationship lane'.

Proving someone's importance doesn't only involve words and visible actions. The tiniest things count, whether if it's the invisible actions through decisions, plans, behaviors, etc, or it could simply just be the time you make and give, out of your fully packed schedule. Sometimes, even sacrifices.

Some things bring bad consequences, knowing it but you do it anyway, based on your own heart, even the worst consequences wouldn't make you feel bad at all. Instead, you feel good about yourself, because in the end, you get to walk home and fall into the arms of the person you love. The most important person in your life, is still there with you.

If having that person means everything in the world, then the rest are merely anything.

Regrets, Guilts, Embarrassments...
They're going to be like an army of ants,
They're strong and they bite.

But look beside you, the one you're holding. The one that might be the only weapon you need, all the support that you want, all the strength that you need.

Together, an army of ants is merely just, an army of ants.

If someone is important to you,

take him/her seriously.

Nothing crushes more than making someone feel foolish.

Nothing brings back the faith someone once had in Love.

Nothing mends a broken heart once it is severely broken.

AwayFromLove Day#5

2011-05-08T20:24:00.002+09:00

Oh why am I still counting? Well, because this is the count of victory!! I actually bathed and get dressed up and go out! It felt good, sooo good! You know how you always say that I don't care? This has got to show you that I do?! Doesn't it?

I lost the heart to actually do anything, I did nothing the past few days. Now it just feels like all of it was a big waste of time, but it shows you how much I do care! So it actually still worth something! =D All that sitting around, sleeping, napping, doing nothing at all, etc. Oh ya, do you know how much I've eaten the past few days?! You wouldn't believe it! Just think of this, a bowl of noodles and dessert/cupcakes at 3 in the morning!! What's worse is that, I didn't do that just for a night!! You ought to give me back some love, you owe me that much!!

____ . Last few days were bit of a ~~hell~~, but I did learn something =)

My happy face is back, you know why.

I know that because I was asked for ID when I bought my liquor earlier.

See you tonight, Love!

TONIGHT . . . (`/♥ , ♥) . . . TONIGHT

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Night#4

2011-05-08T03:22:00.000+09:00

You know how I would always ask you if you know how awesome you are, when you do something? Tonight it's another one of it, you don't have to answer that question, let me tell you!

You're AWESOME!! I was just thinking real hard about you, and there and then, you called. You were so sweet, how could I resist? Not that I have the need to, but how could I resist telling the world how awesome you actually are ~~sometimes~~?! Hah! Anyway, you're worth not going party for. I would have been in a dark place if I did, wouldn't I? That's not the main point though, I'm so excited right now, I don't even know how to stand straight without actually dancing around the room!

___ . This is finally the one last night, also the last Night Post to the series of Night Posts that I've been continuously posting for the last few nights! I can't even begin to imagine how many people have I actually irritated, reading my everyday craziness. But who cares, this marks the end of their miseries! Haha! Also MINE, of course!!! Trust me, this is the part where I really want to shout "(*@^#%@OMG$IB@^%$#)" out of overflown excitement.

Today, during an afternoon nap,

I had a pretty weird yet full of adventure kind of dream.

I don't remember most of it, but at one part,

I was in the sea where there were sharks & other kinds of dangerous big fishes!

All sorts of 'adventures' that kept my heart pumping fast.

I could barely breathe, honestly!

I woke up feeling very uncomfortable, urgh!

Well there's a reason for that actually.

Will tell you tomorrow when you're home!

Remember I told you I was going to sleep till Sunday comes?

I've been sleeping alot, like hell lot. It was crazy.

Well, tonight is no exception.

___ . I just know that I'm going to wake up tomorrow with a big big smile on my face, saying "IT IS SUNDAY!" and maybe sing a song about how great Sunday is =)

Till then, Goodnight Love ♥

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Day#4

2011-05-07T21:32:00.000+09:00

Am I crazy to keep thinking bout our dream vacations that we'll be taking soon? It's too hard not to get so excited about it! Thinking bout it gets me high and up, just can't get it off me!! It's not going to be those fancy vacations that most people dream of, at least not now, but we both know how amazing it's going to be no matter what, don't we!? I'm talking to myself everyday now, it might seem insane since I've been locking myself at home for days. You not being around just feels so empty, it's like I've been waking up without my heart.

__ the wait is going to be over soon!!

The heart must have flown away somewhere.

Nevertheless, the mind is still here.

A mind that never stops thinking about you.

♥

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Night#3

2011-05-07T04:57:00.002+09:00

If you're looking at the time, yes it is almost 5, not in the evening but at dawn. I still can't sleep if you're going to give me a lecture, you know the reason why. Anyway, everyday now I see these two friends of mine on Facebook, they're a couple and one of them left to a place far away. They just talk about things on Facebook, I think it's sweet, yet I find it very interesting, in a weird funny way. Seeing how other people are going through the same thing as I am, makes me feel like I'm not alone. It became somewhat a drama I follow everyday, as I get it, I get what's going on with them. I feel for them! I don't think my situation is any better but at least I get to feel happy after thinking for awhile. As in two days time, you're coming home, I just need to be good and stay patient. Very patient. You know, I was about to go crazy earlier, I was that close to buying that plane ticket to go down there to surprise you! I couldn't control myself, furthermore, who could resist DisneyLand?! In addition, those Disney characters always have a special kind of effect on people, they're magical! Won't you agree? I can't wait to hear all your stories.

Two more days.

I really am feeling like a princess.

You always treat me like one.

Come home quick, your princess misses you.

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Day#3

2011-05-06T21:45:00.001+09:00

Love that my one angry emoticon make you weird and sad all at once. Very sweet of you to care so much. It was just an emoticon, it has been a crazy few days.

___ Haven't stopped missing you

Our songs just keep playing on the radio. Normally at this time, we'd be listening to it together, no matter where we are. We'd turn that radio on, sit there like we're next to each other & just listen to it. It is amazing tonight how every one of our songs are playing one after another, you know how excited I get every time I hear our songs! I turned to my phone, then I remembered =( When the song 'You Raise Me Up' was on, I remember how you'd sing along every time (and of course that hand gesture. HAHA). I'd always act like it's a torture, but I love it, secretly. Now you know the truth, you're still supposed to act like you've never heard of it kayy. It's not an option by the way =) I miss listening to your singing.

Tell me that you're proud of me!

It's day three!

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Night#2

2011-05-05T23:22:00.003+09:00

It really isn't easy missing you like that, I haven't stopped thinking about you for even a second. We're both so excited that you're coming home in a few days time. Someone actually asked why I'm not happy that you're away, that I'm actually having my freedom while you're having your own fun walking around the city of buildings. Well, honestly.. I feel so attached to you that I can't bear being away from you. It's funny how I'm feeling this way, it's pretty new.

I'm going to try to sleep, when I wake up, it will be closer to when all of this end. If you ask me, I really am excited! Hah.

I just can't stop thinking how life's going to be so much more fulfilling in a few months time.

If I knew how depressing these few days would be,

I would have followed you, I would have been by your side.

Sorry I turned you down though, heh.

No next time =)

Goodnight, you.

♥

Only You,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Day#2

2011-05-05T15:35:00.006+09:00

It was 4a.m. and I forced myself to bed, body screaming out of exhaustion, it was the mind who wouldn't listen. As I was lying there, the mind was filled with so many things, so much to say, only nowhere to spill. I went in my dreams, carrying a thousand words, slowly letting it create it's own scene followed by it's own imagination. I knew the sun was up, even though I refused to open my eyes, I was partially awake. All of that but I didn't want to wake up, I would have spent my entire day in bed if I could.

A call from you woke me up, it made sure that I wasn't wrong. The sun is up indeed, behind those curtains is another world where there are busy people everywhere, doing their own things, racing against time. You reminded me of that, telling me that I shouldn't be doing what I was doing. Maybe I was dreaming, maybe I was exhausted, or maybe I just didn't want to listen, I mumbled a little and headed right back into dreamland.

The afternoon has arrived, I heard my clock ticked, it was 2p.m. I felt like I couldn't force myself to continue sleeping any longer, I'd always get bad dreams if I do. Reluctantly, I dragged myself out of bed, sat myself down in front of the computer and watched National Geographic. It was the episode about the 2011 incidents in Japan. For the whole one hour, I was quiet and tears just kept flowing down my cheeks.

Come home soon.

My best friend wanted to slap me for behaving like this.

It's not the end of the world I know, but everything I do reminds me of you.

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Night#1

2011-05-05T01:34:00.003+09:00

1.30a.m.
Today I've been sitting here in front of the computer all day, watching movies and tv shows, it's like torturing my eyes and body as they're shaking their heads (if they actually have heads) saying "NO NO NO, PLEASE, NO MORE." I just drowned myself, trying to make myself forget the fact that I'm actually waiting for you. I don't even know why am I behaving like that! Anyway earlier, you called and asked which angry bird do I like, I then switched to the game, my eyes are going to pop any time soon now. As always, those little bastards piss me off. I turned it off and looked at the clock. There I was, sitting in front of my computer, staring into the black screen. I guess I'm not used to it yet, I don't feel like it's 1o'clock in the middle of the night, it feels like there's something I haven't done and it's keeping me up! This is very unusual for me, normally you'd be around, you'd be asking if I'm sleepy and if not, you'd be singing me songs, reading me stories, playing classical jazz music or piano music. You'd also hear me whine, complain, or we'd just pillow talk and fall asleep together.

Tonight, I just might have to go to bed alone like a grown up, don't I? Well, even so, I know you're out there somewhere singing me the songs I like, reading me those fake fairy tales, and telling me that I'll be okay. A kiss on the forehead, greeting me goodnight, telling me not to worry because you'll be coming home very soon.

. _____ I know.

This is the end of day one.

Yes, I'm counting! How can I not!

I'm really missing you.

Only you,

Bee.

AwayFromLove Day#1

2011-05-04T19:37:00.003+09:00

It's 7.13p.m. and I just woke up. Normally at this time, you'll be calling me, telling me that you're coming back from work. It's so quiet today, no phone calls no messages, nothing at all. I went to sleep knowing that you're up flying in the sky, somewhere above the sea, nowhere to be contacted. Before I slept, I tried to project myself to be where you are, wherever you are, I wished I could sit right next to you. It was all good till when I finally fell asleep, I had a dream. The dream started to get pretty scary and I couldn't stop it. I was all alone in that dream and I just kept running, hoping to find you, hoping that you'd save me. The more I slept, the more unbearable I felt, I couldn't breathe. Yet, I didn't want to wake up because I knew I'd still be alone and I'd hear nothing from you. As I continued, I kept on running and running, into the woods and away from the people who I thought I knew but they were some kind of fake. Very scary. Then you know what? At 7p.m. in that dream, I received a call from you telling me that you're coming to get me. I felt instant relief and ran towards HOME.

I feel like I'm all alone without you, even though it has only just been a few hours, it's enough to ruin me.

I don't know for how many more hours I can take it, I know I promised, I'll try.

Please come home soon?

I know that I don't normally post blogs like that,

but I really needed to say something.

You're always the one who I'd call and tell when I have a bad dream.

Because of you, I wasn't scared.

And now,

Because of you, I am.

Only you,

Bee.

The Church Lady

2010-09-20T13:29:00.008+09:00

Once in awhile, people from the church would come to my door and do their duty as Christians. They give out flyers, talk about their religion..

Last week, two ladies were at my door. One of them seem so enthusiastic, I felt bad to cut her off. So what I did was, I pretended not to understand Japanese. I knew she'd pull out a book of different language. When she asked what language would be more suitable for me, I thought about it for a minute or two, and I thought hard. I said "Malay", figured she wouldn't have it. Seeing Malays are mostly Muslims, they wouldn't even go through the trouble to introduce to Malays right? However, guess what?! She found something that was written in Malay! It was just a self introduction though.

Today, the same lady appeared at my door again. Today she brought a copy of "Do You Want To Know Bout The Truth? Obviously she went online and printed this.

I looked at her disbelievingly with my two 'you're interrupting my sleep' eyes. She saw that and she apologized over and over again. I took the copy and as I was about to tell her that I'm really not interested, she said that she'd come another day and maybe next time I'd let her in my house so she could tell me more.

As touching as it is.. but NO, lady, no more next time I thought. I'd never open my door again! Speaking of keen Christians..

When one's keen & enthusiastic enough..

Midnight tears .

2010-09-20T03:05:00.013+09:00

I just got up from a dream. A bad dream. A bad dream that brought tears to my eyes. A bad dream that took all of my energy. I feel so helpless. What happened in the dream..

I was somewhere in a foreign land, where the land was infected with a disease. Most of the people were held at the hospital for blood testing. That time, I was just walking around, seeing people suffer from this disease that was killing them slowly. I don't quite remember the first one and the second one started spreading. It was these blue deadly bugs, it stings you and you're dead. However, of course one doesn't die immediately. This time, everyone had to go for the blood testing, including me. They had this little plastic thing, somehow it could penetrate your skin and as they press the rectangular part, it sucks up your blood.

(Here's something I drew from my memory)

Yes, those were the places they poke! That little thing works like a.. (with pressure) I'm not sure the name of the apparatus they use in labs, not sure the science term for it. So I'm comparing it to a toilet clogger. Anyway I saw how they poke that thing into your skin and how the blood get sucked up. After that, they checked the colour of the eyes, if your irides are blue, then you're definitely infected. The girl in front was infected as her blue eyes got even more bluer than usual, and when they told her that, she started dropping blue tears. It wasn't so amazing in the dream, because it freaked everyone out. People started rushing around, contacting their family, friends. As for me, I just sat there. I thought to myself, if anything should happen to me, I would ask someone to pretend to be me and talk to my parents, family & friends back at home like I usually do. It doesn't make sense now, but it did at that moment. As I got nearer, being next to my turn, I started freaking out. I tried to run from there, I stood up from the bench.

Luckily for me, I then realized I was having a dream. I woke up immediately, but everything seemed so clear, so real. It was really frightening to know that you might actually die, that if you die, what would you do with the people you love so much.

Would you rather them to not know about your death, & die alone. Or rather let them know so at least they could mourn for you?

- Still bit shaky from that nightmare. -

"No matter what happen, I'll always be with you.

I won't let those things near you,

you'll be okay.

Even if they do, they have to get me first,

I won't let a thing harm you".

So YOU said.

Thank YOU,

For waking up in the middle of the night, listening to my craps.

Telling me things that made me feel so much better.

Knew I could count on YOU.

Beautiful evening ♥

2010-07-10T20:39:00.001+09:00

When someone has gotten used to you being nice,

it doesn't matter how hard you try.

It won't mean a thing,

because it is just a NORM.

Korean 焼肉 ( Yakiniku )

2010-07-06T00:49:00.001+09:00

That means grilled meat. It was 'Eat All You Can', but I think I only had like 5 pieces and I already felt like I've eaten the whole cow. But the Tako (octopus) was good. Looks kinda gross though when it wasn't cooked. Like big worm? I imagined it moving on the net, then I got freaked out.

Bowls of rice then came, with raw eggs on top! Eww!

The 'not-so-famous' pose for photo. Eww!

=P HA` The chef.

He just couldn't be normal for a photo.

Good thing I had two layers of clothes on,

didn't like how I smelled like after that.

Oh and btw,

None of us are Koreans :)

2010-07-03T20:38:00.001+09:00

1 day before the exam...

Finally, I was willing to study. So I made plans and went to school, which later turned out to be hours of 'nothing'. I'm very good at procrastinating :) One of the best! HA`

He looks a lot like one of the football players! Don't you think?!

I'm taking Business tomorrow,

I don't think I need to study,

But LUCK!..

that, I need :)

The 'fun'

2010-07-01T23:34:00.005+09:00

The new 'fun' at school..

& there, abused 'fun'!

"人类总是喜新忘旧"

How true is that?

Blue Sky

2010-06-30T16:59:00.000+09:00

Such beautiful day

Wednesday is my favourite day of the week,

currently.. =)

Yet another, 29th

2010-06-29T00:00:00.004+09:00

The hot summer days are finally here! The weather has not only been hot, but also humid! Everywhere I go, people smell like they've just came out from a strenuous workout at the gym!

I was praying for summer to come more quickly last few months, I think I'm going to regret it now. Not that I don't enjoy being tanned and all, but sweaty and sticky?! It is like having the whole steam room follow you everywhere. You're always wet, and today I couldn't even see things clearly. It was exactly like how it is in the steam room, only bit clearer.

And guess what?

It is Suit Day!

It has been just nice these few days,

thank you, C ♥

& Today, it would have been our 5th.

Damned fish!

2010-06-23T23:22:00.000+09:00

Need I say more? ♥

So I was in the train the other day thinking, if someone smells like fish market sits right beside you and you can't stand the smell.. what would you do?

1. Get away from your seat and stand elsewhere

2. Stay there till you get off, despite the fact that you might just puke any minute

It was a hard decision, I stayed still thinking, if I stayed there and hold my breath, I would go out of breath any minute and I might suffocate and die! But if I went away, would I be hurting or embarrass that person? I mean, you might tell me it is no big deal, but if someone were to move away from me, I would most definitely feel it. Obviously, I'm no good at putting myself first when it comes to things like that. I stayed there till I get off the train. It was hell of a torture!

I've got the answer to my question,

I suppose I just need to learn to accept it.

Daddy Day 2010

2010-06-21T22:01:00.008+09:00

Notice the cardboard on the piano chair, still there after 15years?! When I was a kid, I always wanted to take it off, it made me look better playing the piano, without it. But now, thank goodness my dad was already an OCD freak then, I have the newest looking 15years old piano chair & of course the piano, good as new!

Few years back, when we still had the greens in our home!

This whole OCD thing that runs in the family made me who I am today. So don't complain, it RUNS IN THE FAMILY! But it really isn't that bad, at least I'm clean? I remember once, I asked my dad to take this survey about coloured candies.

The survey asked, "What would you do if you had a handful of coloured candies"?

A : Put them all in a bottle.

B: Separate & put them in bottles following the colours.

Of course you've guess what my dad's answer was. This is not the only thing, but really, I find it funny! But other people seem to get annoyed at OCD people. I was folding my paper prints the other day, and my friend scolded me crazy. But I really don't understand how they could study without making it nice first!

So anyway, it was Father's Day yesterday. Daddy wasn't feeling well, poor thing. Look at him, he looked scary!

But, the smiling face is not that convincing either.

But that's okay, daddy!

I love you still!

& you're still my best friend!

Happy Father's Day!

Ew, birds!

2010-06-20T18:39:00.000+09:00

Q: What do the little bird say to the big bird?

A: Peck on someone your own size!!

Did you know why are woodpeckers so happy?

Because, they eat whatever bugs them.

Don't you wish you could swallow anything, everything, too? HA.

Then, all problems solved! =)

Happy Happy Hop Hop!

2010-06-19T10:05:00.000+09:00

Sometimes I feel this happiness in me that I have no clue where it comes from. They say 'happiness is short-lived', which is so true. I feel it for a few minutes, sometimes few hours. I sing, I smile for no obvious reason, I talk to myself (HAHA) then I laugh... Then of course until something has to come and spoil it. Of course that something need not be a person or a group of people, or the noisy birds. Things like, dirty laundry, messy table, untidy room, etc. get to me sometimes.

It's obvious that my mood changes like the currency exchange rate, it goes up and it goes down without any kind of warning. Don't mind the comparison, all these business related studies I do everyday now are really 'forceful'. It is like, me sitting in a car that operates on its own, driving towards "World of Business".

'Forceful', but I'm really looking forward to see what it is like when I get there.

Till then,

xoxo.

HAPPY.

Babies!

2010-06-18T22:42:00.000+09:00

What do you call this?

I was so tempted to get this, but I could barely even fit an arm in it. Bet it'd look cute on any baby!

I want a baby!!!! I'm tired playing with dolls.

Did you realize how babies always smell nice, combination of milk and powder?

What's better than a cute baby that smells good?

Movies?

2010-06-17T00:08:00.000+09:00

So I went to the movies the other day. It was Sex and The City 2 anyway if any of you were curious. It was fabulous! Love Samantha, always the wild and fun one!

So I wasn't really looking forward to watch the movie, only because of the unpleasant experiences I had at previous cinemas I went to. It was the small & narrow, not so much like cushion seats etc. Worse than GSC, which was really unacceptable since this is Tokyo! But now I know, it was just those sucky cinemas which I don't plan to visit again.

This time, I had a big chair, almost enough to fit 2 persons! Okay.. Maybe I exaggerated a little bit, but it could at least fit more than one normal person! Which was really nice. The cinema was huge and it looked clean, I'm sort of a germ freak, so I could 'detect' germs! It may sound funny, but it's true!

Another thing is, Japanese people are always really quiet throughout the whole movie. They don't even laugh at funny scenes, not that I want to hear loud laughters or anything. But it would be nice to have someone laugh with you and be normal. I mean, normal people laugh at normal funny scenes, right? But that doesn't seem like the case, so guess what? Ever since I realized that, I giggled and laughed silently to myself at the movies. It hurts sometimes or maybe I turned purple, even!

I was sitting inside, last in the row. When the movie ended, I was all prepared to leave. But I was so surprised when nobody moved at all! 3 or 4 people went out right after, but the rest just stayed there! They were all just staring at the screen, like the credits moving up the screen were the most interesting thing they've ever seen! I'm pretty sure I've given them several hints that I'd like to get out, but nobody seemed to be bothered! So there I was, staring at them, fascinated. Until the credits on the screen came to an end, finally.. everybody started to stand up and leave.. Interesting huh?!

Summer has arrived.

Anger

2010-06-13T19:41:00.005+09:00

ANGER :

It is like a parasite! It feeds, it sucks and it is growing in me, larger by minute. Under certain circumstances, I'm unable to talk about it. What more, fix it. So I've been playing the role of an emotionless person, which by the way, isn't easy at all. Then when I'm offstage, these emotions just start surfacing against my will. As being temperamental is unhealthy, this is one of the few things that might just help. Write it.

p/s: Screaming into a pillow is one of it too.

Screaming into a pillow still helps at this point,

but what happens when it stops working?

Damaged.

My daily challenge.

2010-06-06T14:59:00.002+09:00

Sometimes I feel like I want to give up and run back down the ladder, which seems like a much easier thing to do. But I know I can't always take the easy way out, so here I am. Struggling everyday with the same thought in my head, looking up at the other end of the ladder, wondering...

"When, when am I ever going to get there..."

Everyday, I ask myself,

"Just how long can you stay up there?"

Everyday, I tell myself,

"I can do it"

But as days go by, it just gets harder to do.

Regrets?

2010-05-29T18:11:00.001+09:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most :

Saying something and wishing you had not?

or

Saying nothing, and wishing you had?

There are things that sometimes words can't describe,

but that doesn't give you the reason to keep quiet about it.

If words can't describe, there must be another way.

There is always another way.

2010-05-25T01:44:00.000+09:00

An egg?

A duck?

This should keep you wondering for a little bit. But I have a story to tell.

2010-05-23T18:13:00.003+09:00

29052010

So sorry we couldn't make it

Mother's Day 2010

2010-05-09T10:06:00.001+09:00

You said I'm Pinga? Haha.

It has been 2years since I moved here. But I could never forget the days before I left, it was rather a last minute decision to fly here. I didn't have much time to linger around but I did anyway. But it was as if my mum was the one who was going to leave. She rushed here and there buying my things, getting things ready for me. She even packed my whole luggage for me.

You know how you always get the special treatment when you're leaving and going somewhere far away from your family? But my mum has been like that since I was a little girl, she's always more anxious than I am, in almost everything. Despite being asked many times, I was quite reluctant to leave, so I didn't want to pack my bag. As expected, mum started packing while me and daddy just laughed as it worked, (part of me was lazy, so I chose to ignore the whole leaving thing) the trick worked. But one thing I didn't say at that time was how sad I was, and how I wanted to just cry and cancel the whole coming here thing. The picture of mum sitting there packing still at 2 in the night, still comes up in my mind every now and then.

I knew I could manage on my own, but having my mum with me, helping me through everything was a better choice. It didn't help in making me independent, but it definitely made me happy!

Yes, mum loved dressing me up. Remember how she loved tying my hair, I didn't like it because it used to hurt as I used to have so much hair on my head ( I still do anyway ), so it wasn't easy to tie them all up and make it neat. But as I got older, I learned that my brother is one year younger than I am, so mum was never free to do everything at once. But still she'd dressed me up and made me look like a doll everyday. That time I was already able to tie my own hair, but still I miss having my mum to do my hair for me. It felt good every once in a blue moon where she'd offer to tie my hair for me.

Mum, do you still remember the red mechanical pencil you gave me as an award for my good grades when I was little? You made me the happiest kid that day. Kids used to be so easily satisfied huh? I don't know about kids nowadays though, it doesn't seem like it anymore. But whatever it is, you always make me a happier kid no matter how old I am.

You're my very own hero in my heart :)

You might not be the best mum in the world,

but you are definitely the best mum for me!

The mum that everybody would wish for!

That would be one of the reasons why,

I love you, mummy!

Happy Mother's Day!

Every 60seconds of happiness

2010-04-18T23:25:00.002+09:00

You know how sometimes you get angry at something small but yet it could be big deal for yourself? It's even more annoying when you can't shout at the person you're angry with.

GRRRRRRR...

It seems like,

I just need to find a way to get over it.

Theory or Fact?

2010-04-11T23:27:00.000+09:00

"不是你的就别再勉强"

Translated: If it isn't yours, don't force it.

Recently, a friend of mine got turned down by a girl, again. He fancies this girl for quite awhile now, one day when he finally got the courage to ask the girl out.. well, he got turned down. But the girl did ask for some time to think about it. So he didn't give up, he asked again after awhile, only this time it ruined their friendship.

When people say if you want to make something yours, you keep trying, never give up. But does that really work? Is it just a theory or a fact? Like my friend, he didn't give up, but what he got in the end is not a relationship, but a ruined friendship, broken heart. If he would have stopped trying after the first time, he'd still have the friendship. But what would people say? That he didn't want her enough, that's why he could never get her.

So really, if something isn't yours, should you stop trying and let it go?

Or keep trying till it's yours?

Which should I say to my poor, heart broken friend?

The 2 Ws'

2010-04-04T16:19:00.000+09:00

What do you think of the word Willing and Want?

When you're willing to do something, does that mean you want it that's why you do it? Or deep down, you don't want it but you willingly do it anyway. Just because you're being nice? Or for some other reasons of your own?

Let's say if you saw someone falling down..

Automatically you'd reach out your hand and catch them. But what does that mean?

Did you want to save them from hitting the hard ground? Or it was just a reflex that you willingly let it happen? Because you could have chosen not to bother and walk away.

In life, there are so many things that we want. We would even go after some things throughout our whole life. But why? Like wealth, it's true that we can't live without it in the real world. So we build up our knowledge since young, and have better education just so we can have a better career. But what about those people that hate their jobs and yet have the same job forever?

Why do they still do it?

No matter how much they hate their jobs and themselves everyday, sitting in that small cubicle with annoying phones that just wouldn't stop ringing.. For whatever that it's worth, they probably just want to keep their families happy, therefore working on a stupid job, willingly.

Pretty sure you got what I'm trying to say by now?

Life's too short to waste it on nonsense,

When you really want something for yourself,

You go for it.

No more hesitation.

Everyone deserves to be happy.

"Quick decisions are unsafe decisions"

2010-04-01T22:11:00.001+09:00

Have you ever find it difficult to make choices?

Whether it is a simple question or an impossibly tough one?

ex. What should I be ordering? Banana milkshake or Pear juice?

( That could be a simple question or a tough one, it is just how you see it )

Sometimes we knew the obvious answer to a question but still we put ourselves in a bubble of question marks and act like there is no option. Then end up making ourselves miserable because we would be blaming ourselves for not being able to choose, like a fool that has got no idea what he wants for himself.

For some people, they keep thinking over and over again what's right and wrong till they get lost in their own thoughts. Eventually, find themselves in a foggy dark place.

But why do that?

Why can't our decisions just fall somewhere in the middle? Why must we choose? Blue or Red, does it really matter?

Of course I'm not saying one doesn't have to choose. But making a decision is a pain in the ass, what more making the right decision that is right. Thing is, you may never know whether if it's right. Having other people telling you what's right and what's wrong does help, but I think trusting one's own instinct and do what he likes and think it's right for himself is important. Because in the end, it is a decision of your own, one that you make that brings no regret.

What I'm trying to say is, if you do not know what to do at the very moment, let it be. Stay there for awhile till all your doubts are cleared out.

It is not so bad standing in the middle of nowhere, not knowing where you are. Maybe just by standing there, you could see what's coming to you from all directions. Sooner or later, you'll find the sun at the end of one of the roads. And you just know..

That's where you should be heading..

Just when I thought I could take it..

Then I realized,

I just needed to see it with my own eyes.

And I did.

Surviving the worse last half of an April Fools' Day.

My Shining Star

2010-03-30T14:39:00.002+09:00

So we celebrated our ²month yesterday. Two months may sound short as it is, but it feels like we've been going on forever. If this is how forever feels like, then I guess it wouldn't be bad to go through it with you.

__________________________________________________________

But,

Something has been bothering me for quite awhile now, and I chose to speak up. Not any day but yesterday. What's not good to not have something to remember on an anniversary, right?

Well, it was a little bit after midnight when things got slightly ugly. We never really fought like how other ordinary people do, we'd always talk & sort things out. Only, some things can't really be sorted out. So there was this long silent moment.. Somehow, keeping our mouth shut works for us sometimes. I know it doesn't solve the problem, but talking about a problem with no solution is worse.

I'm not going into details

I took out the trash at around 3.30am, and I actually found something that cheered me up, right away!! :)

It was a total darkness, but the bright full moon...!!!!

I bet if it wasn't dark, it would have been a clear blue sky, no clouds, no nothing..

But just a beautiful blue sky.

That gives me hope.

Remember the favor,

Whenever you need it.

Happy Two Month Anniversary ♥

Turtle crap

2010-03-30T12:56:00.004+09:00

So I thought it was cute they made turtle buns. Look at it, who wouldn't buy it?

But it is a one time thing for me. It tasted like crap! Think it was Matcha or something, but again.. Maybe it's just me, never liked Matcha in my food.

"To find out what others are feeling, don't prod or poke.

If you want to play with a turtle,

you can't get it to come out of its shell by prodding and poking it with a stick.

You might kill it.

Be gentle not harsh, hard or forceful."

Social

2010-03-29T19:55:00.003+09:00

Sometimes we might just want to learn to hear only what is to be heard in our range. Don't go poking your nose into every little business that does or does not involve you. Most importantly those that don't have anything to do with you. Because then you might just discover things that upset you. Remember that there are always things that you might not like hearing.

Turning a deaf ear is a positive approach at times. Nothing for us to brood about that will make us unhappy. Especially holding on to grudges and unpleasant event will definitely make us unhappy. Learn to be independent and to carry on with life as simple as possible. Last but not least DO NOT BE A NOSEY POKER :)

It is time we learn to do things for ourselves and be happy :)

Have you smiled today?

Welcoming myself back to Buttom Mushroom.

2010-03-29T15:25:00.003+09:00

How long has it been since I last blogged? Wow, it feels good to be back. I was a blogger once, but I thought it takes up too much of my time. But looking at my old abandoned blog makes me want to write again. Plus, recently someone said to me,

".. writing stuff down kind of exorcises it out of ones own head.."

I can't say that I'm back for good, but for the time being, I'm back! :)

Happy 19th Birthday!

2009-07-14T19:36:00.002+09:00

Loveliest, sweetest friends ever, EVER!!

You have to see this!
HAVE TO!

Thank you! I know I don't have to say much, because they know just how important they are to me and of course, how much I love them!
xoxo

Charlie The Unicorn 02

2009-06-18T19:32:00.004+09:00

For those who are waiting for the second episode,
Here it is!

Video by. SecretAgentBob

(Charlie is seen watching television with his stuff. The pink and blue unicorns are floating above Charlie, wearing scuba goggles, flippers, and air tanks with snorkels, pretending to swim)

Blue and Pink: Glub glub...Glub glub...glub glub...glub glub...glub glub...

Blue: Look over there! It's a coral reef.

Charlie: Oh look, it's you guys...and you're floating.

Blue: Charlie, we're scuba diving, Charlie.

Pink: We're exploring the depths of the ocean blue.

Blue: Oh no! Here comes a school of poisonous fugu fish!

Pink: Nooo! Fugu!

Charlie: Ah, you gotta watch out for those. So, uh, go away. I'm watching TV.

(A blue vortex appeared on Charlie's back)

Blue: The vortex is open!

Charlie: Oh god. Okay, what is this?!

Pink: Charlie! We're being pulled into the vortex! Swim away, fugu fish, swim away!

Charlie: Come on now. You guys are freaking me out! Turn this thing off!

Blue: There's no stopping the vortex, Charlie!

Pink: Fuuuguuuu!

(Pink and Blue disappeared, along with the vortex)

Charlie: Guys? Guuuys? Or girls...I'm not really not sure what you two are.

(The vortex appeared with Blue's head sticking out)

Blue: Charlie! Charlie, I have the amulet!

Charlie: What amulet?! What's going on?!

Blue: The amulet, Charlie! The magical amulet! Sparkle sparkle!

(Pink appeared briefly)

Pink: Sp! Sparkle!

Charlie: I, I don't understand what you're talking about!

Blue: The amulet... Nyeh! Nyeh!!!

(Blue disappeared. Then both Pink and Blue popped out of the vortex, in which it disappeared briefly. Blue has the amulet on its neck. Somehow, their scuba outfit is off)

Blue: We did it!

Pink: We got the amulet!

Charlie: Great. Now go away! I'm tired of the horrible things that happen when you're around!

Blue: No, Charlie!

Pink: No!

(Pink and Blue puffed up while screaming no repeatedly, then turned back to normal)

Blue: We have to take the amulet to the Banana King.

Charlie: Oh, yes, the Banana King, of course. Absolutely not!

Pink: He, he's counting on us, Charlie! ah... *floating*

Blue: If we don't give the amulet to the Banana King, the vortex will open and let out a thousand years of darkness.

Pink: No! Darkness! (Pink is somehow floating)

(The vortex appeared again with tentacles sticking out with a roar)

Charlie: Ah! All right, fine! I'll go! I'll go!

Pink and Blue: Yay! (Just Pink) Darkness!

(Cut to the three walking through the woods. Pink and Blue were making tongue-blooping sounds) I love this!!

Charlie: What are you two doing?

(Silence. Then Pink and Blue continued with their tongue-blooping)

Charlie: Stop that.

(Silence. Then Blue made one last tongue-bloop)

(The three stop in front of a big Letter Z)

Charlie: Oh, look at that.

(Pink and Blue started talking to the Letter Z in Spanish. Here's the translation)

Pink and Blue: Z!!!

Blue: "The man with the hat sent us!"

Pink: "He told us many amazing stories!"

(The Letter Z made pinging sounds)

Pink and Blue: Ho Ho Ho Ho Ho!

Charlie: What?

Pink: "Tonight we dine on turtles!"

Blue: "They will be good, Z!"

(The Letter Z shot a laser at Charlie)

Charlie: Ahh! What did you two do?!

Pink and Blue: Z!!!

Blue: "I am happy!"

(The Letter Z, again, made pinging sounds)

Pink and Blue: Ho Ho Ho Ho Ho!

Charlie: (mumbled) Just keeping walking, Charlie. Keep walking...

(The three stop in front of a giant sneaker)

Blue: Hop on board the train, Charlie.

Pink: It's gonna take us to the Banana King.

Charlie: I don't see any train. All I see is a giant sneaker.

Blue: It's the Choo Choo Shoe, Charlie.

Pink: The Choo Choo Shoe!

Blue: Hurry, Charlie. It's about to leave.

(Pink and Blue got in the sneaker)

Pink and Blue: Chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga shoe shoooooe! Chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga chugga shooe shoooooe!

Charlie: Yeah, uh I forgot my boarding pass. I'll just walk.

(Cut to the three in front of a banana-themed temple emblazoned with the words EX ORIENTE LUX BANANA, which is probably meant to be bad Latin for "From the east, the light of a banana")

Pink: We're here, Charlie!

Blue: The Temple of the Banana King!

Charlie: Great. Let's leave the amulet and go home.

(A green slug-like creature resembling Santa Claus popped out of nowhere, smiling. According to filmcow.com, the creature's name is Frogrus. He is known to be the Banana King's servant)

Charlie: Who is that?

(Silence)

Charlie: No, no really. You guys see it, right?

(Silence)

Charlie: I gotta be honest. I'm getting creeped out here. Somebody say something?

(Frogrus suddenly started to sing)

Frogrus: Charlie, you look quite down with your big fat eyes and your big fat frown. The world doesn't have to be so grey. Charlie, when your life's a mess, When you're feeling blue, always in distress, I know what can wash that sad away. All you have to do is...Put a banana in your ear!

Charlie: A banana in my ear?

Frogrus: Put a ripe banana right into your favourite ear! It's true.

Charlie: Says who?

Frogrus: So true. Once it's in your gloom will disappear. The bad in the world is hard to hear, When in your ear a banana cheers, So go and put a banana in your ear!

Frogrus and Bananas: Put a banana in your ear!

Charlie: I'd rather keep my ear clear.

Frogrus and Bananas: You'll ne'er be happy if you live your life in fear. It's true.

Charlie: Says you.

Frogrus and Bananas: So true. When it's in the skies are bright and clear. Oh every day of every year. The sun shines bright on this big blue sphere. So go and put a banana-

Frogrus: -in your earrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

(Frogrus disappeared in flames)

Charlie: Oh, of course, he burst into flames.

Blue: Go fourth, magical amulet! Return to the Banana King!

(The amulet got out of Blue's neck, floated to the air, and shines a beam of light at Charlie)

Blue: Charlie! YOU'RE the Banana King!

(Charlie is floating to the amulet from the beam of light)

Charlie: What? Hey, hey, hold on a minute!

(A banana appeared onto Charlie's back)

Banana: You're the Banana King, Charlie!

Charlie: No! I'm not! That doesn't make sense!

Blue: All hail the Banana King!

Charlie: I'm not the Banana King!

Blue: You ARE the Banana King!

Charlie: No, NO! I...I...

(Suddenly, more bananas appeared onto Charlie's back)

Bananas: Banana! Banana! Banana! Banana! Banana!

(A crown plopped on Charlie's head)

Charlie: I...I AM the Banana King!

Pink and Blue: Yay!

Banana: You ARE the Banana King!

Charlie: I'm the Banana King! Yeah!

(Charlie noticed that Pink and Blue disappeared)

Charlie: Hey, hey...where'd you go? Guys? Hello? Get me down from here!

(The beam of light disappeared, causing Charlie and the amulet to fall on the ground, and the crown falls off Charlie's head)

Charlie: Augh! Okay, that's a sprain.

(Cut to where Charlie walking through the woods alone)

Charlie: Hello? Hello! Guys, where are you?

(Charlie saw that his TV and the rest of his stuff was gone)

Charlie: Argh! Ya gotta be....Great! They robbed me!

(Suddenly, the vortex from earlier appeared, with Blue's head sticking out)

Charlie: Ahh!

Blue: Charlie!

Charlie: What do you want?!

(Silence)

Blue: plulululup! (Loveeeeeeeeee this!)

Source : Wikitubia

Charlie The Unicorn 01

2009-06-14T16:34:00.004+09:00

by. SecretAgentBob

Check out his Youtube videos

I can never get tired of this!
Even after watching it for a hundred times!!

2009-06-13T15:36:00.004+09:00

(Melon)

Last week, I went to this incredibly cute little store in Meguro and they have the cutest lighters, cigarette boxes, cigarettes in different flavors and even flavored cigars. I've not heard of grape flavored cigar before till last week, it smells a lot like the bubble gum and it's wrapped with the sweetest paper, enough to make your lips sweet with the taste of grapes. Didn't quite like it though, and I got few boxes of those flavored cigarettes. The picture above, that's one of it. That too, sweet like ~~hell~~. I actually wondered if one could get diabetes from smoking these!

( Apple, Lemon )

( Grapes, Peach )

2009-06-13T00:22:00.004+09:00

It is image like this that makes you miss all your friends back home!

Though the others aren't anywhere in the screen

But I miss every single one of you!!

xoxoxoxoxo

Confessions Of A Shopaholic

2009-06-07T13:46:00.005+09:00

For those who love the movie 'Confessions Of A Shopaholic', but haven't read the book by Sophie Kinsella should definitely read it. Personally, I think the book is so much better than the movie itself. Well, there were a few things on my mind that annoyed me throughout the whole journey of the movie.

First let me start with the characters. Rebecca Bloomwood, also known as Becky ( Isla Fisher ), is the famous financial expert everybody loves. She loves to shop and although in numerous occasions, she's described as the girl who has zero knowledge of the finance, but if asked for advice, she'd always come up with something smart. But in the movie, she seems more like a dumb blonde who only knows how to shop, and zero knowledge! I'm sure one of the reasons why readers love Becky is because she is the 'scheming shopaholic', nobody likes girls who only know how to dress up themselves.

As for Luke Brandon starring Hugh Dancy, didn't appear to be the arrogant but smart, tall and dark handsome hunk. The entrepreneur who owns his own company, 'the modern day prince charming' as he is in the book. Somehow, I've always pictured him that way. I think the actor was a let down, he's so wrong for the role!
Next up, we have the best friend Suze ( Krysten Ritter ) who has blonde hair, not black!! Her boyfriend Tarquin or Tarky ( Nick Cornish ), in the book he's described as a geek and wears weird-looking knitwears made by his grandmother. He's not supposed to be good looking as he is in the movie, he's described as thin and bony, so why can't the character in the movie be that way?! Obviously they missed out the fact that Tarky is the 15th richest guy in the country and is Suze's cousin and had a crush on Becky before Suze!
Alicia Billington or Alicia bitch long-legs ( Leslie Bibb ), works for Luke not some magazine company! And she is never Luke's girlfriend or anywhere near that.
Derek Smeath ( Robert Stanton (II) ), this is ridiculous. He's the sweet Smeathy that Becky loves, not this evil debt collector!

The setting of the story is changed including the location, in the book everything happened in London not New York. They are British not Americans! Not to say that I ~~hate~~ the movie, but I love the Shopaholic series too much to let the movie spoiled everything that I've imagined.

Read the book to get more detailed details =)

You'll love it

Problem with Restaurant City

2009-06-01T17:56:00.002+09:00

I was wondering if you all RC players have the same problem?
See the shadows there??
It has been days already, they really need to fix it!!!

Forever21

2009-06-01T15:28:00.003+09:00

The Forever21 in Harajuku, Tokyo

First shop in Japan, it was opened on April 29. I was there, the crowd was crazy! We had to line up to get in there, people started lining up an hour before the 11am opening. I couldn't take the pictures so I'm grabbing from TokyoFashion.com.

The line went all the way down a few blocks, there were securities all over guarding the line. One group after another had their turns to go in. That's one of the good things about Japanese, I call them 'The Obedient Citizens'. Right there, I was wondering if this was in Malaysia, people wouldn't be following the instructions, what more staying in line? That is no wonder why my parents never liked going to crowded places. You might get stumbled over or squished! One of the many things Malaysians should learn!

I'm not one of those people who lives in a foreign country and start criticizing his own country. I'm not like that! But sometimes it makes me think, why can't Malaysians learn?

Well, what can I say, that's the..
"Semangat Orang Malaysia"

Back blogging

2009-05-31T17:30:00.001+09:00

Finally, a new look! How do you people like it? Better than the previous so called "tourist guide" like blog?

Lately, I've stopped blogging due to a few reasons. Firstly, sometimes I know exactly what I want to blog about, but I just can't find the right words to express myself. Something like lost for words, my friends said maybe because I'm taking English lessons from a Japanese teacher. I don't know how true is that, but the classes are awful, really awful. Even the text book is written by a Japanese author. What's the point? Even if he's a phD holder, though I seriously doubt that. Everything is so wrong, from pronounciation to grammar... I know this is not the first time I'm complaining, so about that I better stop right here.

Like Sugarscamp, she jots down things she wants to blog about the moment the idea strikes her. Well I don't, so when I reach home the 'bulb' is no longer there and so I just forget about it and get on with my life.

And sometimes, I'm just so occupied with the people around me, annoyed by their stupidity. Strangling them might be the best way, blinding them with a fork sounds equally good too. But since it's illegal to hurt someone in public, there's nothing much I can do. So it gets to me sometimes, can a person become stupid if they get angry often? The brain burns and therefore one becomes slow.

It's Monday again tomorrow, I hope everyone had a great weekend!
Back to work tomorrow!
xoxo

Credits to Sugarscamp

2009-05-25T21:28:00.002+09:00

This blog is so dead right now..!
Been awhile since I last blogged! Want updates? I'm on Twitter, look me up for updates! ;)
Username's below

Jessica_LXY

Busy schedule!

2009-04-13T22:15:00.002+09:00

I'm so addicted to the application Restaurant City (R.C.) on Facebook that 24hours a day is not enough for me anymore! I'm exhausted, with my new semester started last week, a lot of catching up to do and there's addition of subjects! So you see, not only can't I leave my school work, I can't leave RC too cause the workers need to be fed, if I don't they'll die! lol. I know it's very time consuming but I can't help it, very addictive! If you have lots of time in hand, do try it! I'll send the invitation if you need it :)

2009-04-05T09:29:00.002+09:00

Shiny red!
(I post this here just because I want to get rid of the picture from my computer)

Family's in town, day 2

2009-03-30T11:29:00.013+09:00

The next day, we went to the cemetery in Zoshigaya, south part of Ikebukuro.

This is the cemetery's administrative office, where you can buy flowers and get detailed map with names and locations of the most popular and most visited graves of Tokyo's famous people.

The model administrative office inside the office. They have pictures of their own office laying around the office, big and small.. Which is pretty weird..

The grave of Natsume Sōseki (1867 - 1916 ), famous Japanese novelist.
Also appeared on Japanese 1000yen.

There are so many more, but I'm not familiar.. So going on to the ancestor's graveyard.

Putting the flowers and watering it..

Didn't know they still have this kind of streetcar going around, I don't know what they call it but it's cute! Small small, short short!

On the way to lunch.. Photos of the gasoline stations here that I've been meaning to take since 3years ago, now here it is. The pumps are hanging down from the top, pretty amazing.

Happy Spring Break!

Family's in town, day 1

2009-03-30T10:33:00.015+09:00

So the day before yesterday, I went to a fancy restaurant ( Bistro de Hata ) with the family. I don't know if it's Japanese or French but I had really great red wine, great food.

Myself : Why aren't you smiling? and he said : I'm smiling already!~

We all wanted to see Sakura after dinner, so we took the train and went over to Senzoku. It's a little bit like jungle trekking, we hiked up a little, climbed up a flight of stairs and there we were.

Nothing much to see, not full bloom yet

It's a little night market up there! Selling food and drinks

It was cold that night, we didn't stay long..

Happy 24th Birthday

2009-03-21T00:00:00.004+09:00

Having a sister is like having a friend that you can't get rid of. My sister, has always been a good friend, though she can be a little mean sometimes. But overall, we share the same interests in almost everything. She's someone I gossip with and not be afraid that I'd get a stab in the back. She's the only one that gets all my jokes, and laugh about it.

Today, she's turning 24 and she's engaged to the bf, Eric. Someone she loves dearly, dream guy or not, as long as she's happy. So congratulations!

I know you're not having any big celebrations, that you just want a quiet birthday as you don't like crowds anymore. I also know I should have been there to have dinner.. So instead, I got these!

Green Tea and Chocolate with red beans

Strawberry, your favourite!

I'm celebrating your birthday, with myself! =)
Have a great year, hope dreams come true for you.

Happy Birthday, sis!

p/s: Don't always get angry ;)
Be happy!

This is the 3D glasses that you said we can't possibly make it on our own! What did I tell you huh? Pretty cool isn't it?

2009-03-15T18:44:00.006+09:00

Yeah, I'm still here.. after posting the last blog. I've been trying since yesterday to get myself sleepy, not tired because I am. But my mind was stubborn, so after my dearests left, I stayed on playing the most stupidest game ever! I tried playing it for more than an hour but I had to give up after hitting the 'restart' button wrongly! There went all my effort.. I was actually running a salon, cut, wash, colour the hair, waxing, manicure & pedicure, then I had this tanning machine. I tried leaving customers in there, let them burn! But too bad they didn't die.. They just got burnt! HAHAHA Then they paid me with this unsatisfied smiley and refused to give me tips!!

After that, I had my breakfast. I thought about it again and again actually, cause Anna said "don't go to bed after meal". When I got up to get myself some food, I realized how painful my ass is. I looked at the time, and counted, I've been sitting for more than 10hours on that stupid cushion chair that's supposed to be soft!! I came back here thinking, Anna just got off and won't be back so soon, Melia has gone to some farm with the in-laws.. What should I do?!

Yes.. movies. I watched D.E.B.S. (2004 ) starring Jordana Brewster, Mia from The Fast & The Furious. She's the super villain in D.E.B.S but she doesn't really do bad things? This is more to a really stupid Comedy, but funny. I like it! She stole all the money from the bank and gave it back in the end with a 'sorry' note. lol

I got a shower finally and went outside. Damn, the sun was so bright, it wasn't hot but it was really bright. I couldn't open my eyes, and I looked really pale and really fair like a walking zombie. For the first time, I got bit scared of the sun. Like I've not seen the sun for a hundred years. Maybe now I understand why's my 'friend' afraid of the sun, oh wait.. she's also afraid of going out to post a letter!

I came home with lots of oranges, grapefruits & kiwi fruit! and.. came right back here, munching away on my food.

Was checking my mails when I was eating this, and there it was! It's the Nyotaimori again. Googled it, tried to find the location of the restaurants, but could never find it! Every website posted by the users have the same pictures! If anyone know where it is, let me know. It's originally from Japan, but it's so rare!

My lifeless life. Enjoy!

Oh ya! I downloaded new movies! The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, the type of movie that you like, Anna! Let's watch it together! =)

Outback Steak House

2009-03-15T04:00:00.001+09:00

(outback homepage)
"Outback Steak House is an Australian steakhouse restaurant." It's confirmed. Previously, we were wondering if it's American. We got there around dinner time and the place was already packed! with people. I must say, there are more foreign customers than Japanese. The place is big but like I said, it was packed! There were people in every each corner, we made our reservation anyway despite being told to wait for bout 30minutes. Outback occupied the whole second floor of the double storey building. We ended up waiting for more than an hour, starving. But they served drinks and fries while we were waiting.

The style is very much like Chilli's or T.G.I. Friday's. Five of us ordered only two steak meals, the fries and salad. The food is fine, they aren't like super duper good, but we ordered only a few out of so many choices. Maybe next time, I'll get the right one. I had a good white wine though, it was really good.

Grilled Chicken Caesar Salad

Crisp Romaine hearts tossed with Caesar dressing, homemade croutons and aged Parmesan shreds. Topped with grilled chicken.

Aussie Cheese Fries

French fries topped with cheese and bacon, served with spicy Ranch dressing.

Diced Fillet with Mushrooms Diced fillet steak to go with the mushroom sauce

Diced Fillet with Garlic & Peppers Diced fillet tossed with garlic and peppers.

I was rather disappointed to be honest, I expect to have a big whole steak if I were to go to a steakhouse! My friends know I always like to have my own order, and so they'd always stop me from doing so. Because by the end of the day, I can never finish the whole portion and end up forcing them to finish it. Well, although now that they're not here to stop me, but I kind of got used to the idea. So I agreed to share, and see what I got?! The best from all the above is the Caesar Salad, which is my choice. Another thing I learnt from my dear friends is that, never order something with weird names or newly introduced food that looks unfamiliar and.. NEW. Don't be a guinea pig, and stick with the normal ones. But of course, it's good to be adventurous! Try out new things and all, but just don't complain when it tastes weird.

They're so fair!

Next, I'm going to try Pepper Steak Lunch or is it Pepper Lunch?
(May, Melissa) Will let you know how it is!

Boredom #1

2009-03-10T16:28:00.005+09:00

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then re-post as your __% innocent.

01. Smoked
02. Drank alcohol
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
10. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
11. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose .
12. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
13. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
14. Been to prom.
15. Cried at school.
16. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
17. Went streaking.
18. Given or received a lap dance.
19. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
20. Skipped classes.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 85

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 80

31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 75
41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR? : 68

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy .
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 62

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 53

71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 52

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 47

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR : 42
Well, at least it's almost half.

Just another post, where it kind of shows just how much time I have in hands. And hereby, I'm tagging the people who have absolutely nothing better to do.
ALSO..

May
Kristi
Anna
Wern
Eelyn
Jillian
Randy
Janice
Emkay
Amelia
Fei Cui
Melissa
Rebecca

The Happy O-Meter!

2009-03-07T00:25:00.001+09:00

Days in a post

2009-03-05T16:30:00.001+09:00

3rd March, the third day of the third month, it was Hinamatsuri ( The Japanese Doll Festival or better known as Girls' Day ). A short celebration was held in school, we had to fold this little box thing with paper to put the crackers in it. The crackers are colourful and sweet, then there's amazake (sweet non alcoholic sake). It wasn't bad, kind of like it actually despite my French friends that hate it.

Here's a picture of it.

According to the weather report, there'd be a heavy snow that it'd pile up, in Tokyo that afternoon itself. So for that, I stayed back at school just to see it. Then sadly, I couldn't stay till it falls, didn't have an umbrella. That night, I waited impatiently, till finally.. little drops of rain turned into snow. I was home then, took quite a few pictures. They aren't that impressive..

Click pictures to enlarge

I know, they just simply look like I have a dirty lens on my camera..

I guess I was hoping that I can make a before and after compilation with this. Before it piles up and after, well guess I can't afterall.. It didn't happen!
Bad weather forecast?

Finally, the exam is over. The night before, I couldn't be bothered anymore to study not even at the last minute, wasn't feeling good at all. Maybe it was the weather, the sudden cold weather and all. So if I ever get a bad result, I guess I deserve it huh?

Then we went to the bookstore. The English books they sell is only this little section! Most of it are books from the movie, or is it the other way round? But anyway I always prefer to watch than read. There wasn't much choices, I wanted to get the series of the Shopaholics, but Marylin teased me! Obviously, we have different taste in books. So fine! But only because I have it in my computer. Luuk said Slumdog Millionaire is a very good movie. He insisted that I watch it, so I thought before that I'd read it first.

Is that the filmstar?

This other one "Married in Seattle" looks nice, maybe partly because Chris is always telling me how nice it is in Seattle and all. We'll see.

Nice cover huh?

I just finished reading this book for the second time.

The Naughty Neighbor

Anna showed me this blog the other night, the blogger just got herself a Kate Moss's perfume. The cover looks nice, so it kind of made me want one myself too though I just got one not so long ago. So today, I went to the Fragrance store to look for it. Smells nice, but I ended up getting different ones.

Now I'm satisfied.

Is Paris Hilton really that bad?.. Ah all right, that was a stupid question. But I have nothing against her, I kinda like her actually. See, that doesn't make me plastic or D.B. =) I used to collect her books and wanted her first perfume, but it's not selling anymore. They have the male version one though, I think its suitable for females too. 'Heiress' is just really sweet, guess I just got it for the sake of it. It's not so bad, at least it has a cool box.

Shadow?

2009-03-01T19:15:00.001+09:00

Do we look alike?

Japanese/Hokkien #3

2009-02-27T21:35:00.000+09:00

Ok, so since there are quite a few complaints regarding the last post, this is what I'm going to do.
I'm going to help you people with Japanese! Let's start learning, shall we? It's easy, I promise. Very much like our native language, well.. most of us.

Thankful, Grateful
Hokkien : Kam Siah
Japanese : Kan Sya ( 感謝 )

Emotionally affected, Touched, Moved
Hokkien : Kam Tong
Japanese : Kan Dou ( 感動 )

Reason, Grounds
Hokkien : Lee Eu
Japanese : Ri Yuu ( 理由 )

See? Not so hard after all, isn't it?
Another three new vocabulary
ENJOY!

Short message

2009-02-22T01:03:00.004+09:00

今日は、日本語のブログにしようと思ったんだけど．．．
日本語を読めない人たちに、ごめんね！

　　じゃぁ．．始めましょう！

最近、あまりブログを書かなかったので、ちょっと長い話がたくさんあります。大体毎日の過ごし方とか、出来事とかなどのいろいろは、皆に話したいんですけど。時間がないから止めて、写真だけで済むという訳だよ！

ランジ、このブログはあなたのために、作ったんだよ！
よく読んでってね！
よろしく！

2009-02-15T19:17:00.003+09:00

Happy Valentine's Day

Japanese/Hokkien #2

2009-01-26T16:32:00.003+09:00

Exercise (verb)
Hokkien : Un Tong
Japanese : Un Dou （運動）

Opinion, Point of View (noun)
Hokkien : ee Ken
Japanese : ee Ken （意見）

Simple, Easy (adjective, noun)
Hokkien : Kan Tan
Japanese : Kan Tan （簡単）

a random post

2009-01-25T10:56:00.005+09:00

お弁当
Real nice seafood box-lunch
Crab meat and scallop

お風呂
My little bath tub
With nice blue hot water

Signed out,
♥♥

CNY 09'

2009-01-25T10:04:00.003+09:00

They said it was snowing yesterday night. As usual, me being all excited, ran out to check. It's weird that everyone's place was snowing but not mine.. What I had was just sleet, frozen raindrops.
Anyway, its Sar Chap Meh tonight, my first cold chilly Chinese New Year.

Everyone out there,

Have a prosperous year of OX!!
and a warm Chinese New Year!!

Japanese/Hokkien

2009-01-24T12:47:00.010+09:00

Some Japanese words sound very much like other languages. For example, Mandarin, Cantonese, Korean.. They are also very much similar to Minan Language, or rather the Hokkien dialect. Whatever people call it.

Today, I'm going to list out three examples of Hokkien words which you can see how similar they sound. They also have the same meaning.

Carriage, Cart
In Hokkien we say : Beh Chia
In Japanese : Ba Sya （馬車）
Of course if you compare the spelling, its not going to look very similar but if you just listen and say it. As you can see, car in Hokkien is Chia, in Japanese its almost similar, Sya.

Square, Quadrilateral
In Hokkien : Si Kak
Japanese : Shi Ka Ku （四角）
I think that's obvious

Dance (Noun)
Hokkien : Bu
Japanese : Bu (as like 歌舞伎）

There are so much more, we'll see that in the upcoming posts.

2009-01-17T10:02:00.016+09:00

Saturday, 6.30am

Outside temperature: 1-3 degrees

Hello Saturday Morning!
I took a walk after I got up from my 12hours sleep
Feels great!!

Let's see what I've got..

The icy frozen cars

Myself, enjoying the chilly weather

The burning red trees from Autumn

The speed limit of 30, but the drivers seem to always go faster

The wilted tree?

Nahh, just a phase

Park 24hours for only a thousand yen

AND..

Home

oh and thanks dear!
For the Care Bears!
Dovy and Little Doovy!

Sweet!

Oh no, wait wait..

Thanks for the card, Luuk!

2009-01-13T22:20:00.002+09:00

I was starving in the train on my way back from school, so I thought to myself.. Maybe I should stop by the store and grab something there for lunch. And so I went..

While I was walking in the store, this sudden urge of buying and cooking strikes me. So all right, instead of buying lunch, I bought fresh veggies, fish, beef, chicken... quite enough for the whole month's consumption! I felt stupid after paying for it, the things don't even last that long! Maximum a week or so? But again, you can't blame a girl for wanting to learn how to cook?

On my way back, the devils in my mind had again asked "Don't you need something from the drug store? (Watson type of store, only bigger with lots more stuff)" Well.. yeah, I have the whole list left at home. Went back, wasn't hungry anymore by then, full with the stupidity of mine. But I couldn't resist the fresh bought Tuna and Salmon, I had to finish every last piece of it. While doing that, I watched Scorpion King by The Rock. Some old movie? But I enjoyed it, dramatic, yes.. But at least! at least! the girl didn't die pushing him away from the deadly arrow, instead he saved her! Okay, that's just one part of it.. Movie with happy ending.

in the drug store..
One of the guy workers there just appeared everywhere I went. I felt weird, kinda like I was stealing from them. But couldn't care much anyway.. I like buying toiletries. This time, much better, just got 2 or 3 items extra that aren't in the list. I got home with a big bag of things, feeling happy. I feel happy just by looking at all the things I got :)

I went online a bit and I felt like buying things again, I gotta admit, I have a little problem today.. Can't help it, so I started looking around the house see what else do I really NEED. I found 2! I really need those and...Yay! Let's go to the shop and get it!!

Walking around the store, filling up my basket was enjoyable. They sell everything there, from household needs to stationary to whatever you name it, they have it. There was this lady walking from the street to the store with me, and in the store, she appeared quite a number of times at the same part and when I went to the counter to pay for the basket which was already full, she was just behind me. What a coincidence! She looked kinda scary with her lioness dirty blonde/gold hair.. Let's not go further into it. I took quite awhile to pick up those items in my basket, I can be very picky and frickle minded when it comes to choosing stuff. By the time I stopped myself, forced and dragged myself to the counter, I've already filled up the basket with more than enough nonsense. I paid for my 15items, and there she was with 4 items. What took her so long? Why is she always around?!

Care less I said and walked my way home, happily.

2009-01-12T17:41:00.002+09:00

Tagged by Anna.

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
No doesn't matter, but if he has health issues, then yes.

2. How about drinking?
Like what I said in Question1

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
Yes, and I'm sure everyone has

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yes, but please make it a little mysterious? :)

5. What's your favourite sport?
Well.. I like to swim, and I like riding a bicycle, working out at the gym (but I never said that I'm not lazy)

6. It's saturday night, you're home alone. What do you do?
Call up some friends, make them come over. Or just go out and chill. Not really a club-goer

7. Do you like roller coasters?
Yes! The excitement!

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
When one's lonely? haha nahh, its not about the perfect time, but the perfect one.

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
I don't have anyone particular in mind, but I would say the influential Angelina Jolie, isn't she the coolest? I think both sexes could totally fall for her

10. What are you doing this weekend?
I just had a quiet weekend, next weekend should be the same. But if I were to be in Penang, I'm sure I'll be tired and exhausted after the weekend.

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
I'm not picky, I'm fine with anything, as long as they play good music, not too crowded around, I get services that I pay for.. then I'm fine.

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
Yes.

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
Yes. Urrghh!

14. Do you like anyone right now?
The infatuated kind? Hmm no one in particular

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
His body, then his neck

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?

Beach, I love the sun! But not the sand, but again.. what's beach without the sand?

17. What kind of phone do you have?
A phone that looks alot like a remote control!

18. Computer or Laptop?
Laptop

19. Jeans or sweats?
Jeans

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
So far.. my high school years. its kinda hard not to break the rules and all, but its all the fun that I had through my school years.

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?

19! and I still can't believe that, sometimes I still think I'm 12, well ok maybe not 12 but still, 19's a bigger number now!

22. What should you be doing right now?
I should be studying for my next test, preparing for tomorrow's class. I'm just not in the mood, I miss my life. Yes, I had a life..

23. What is your favourite TV show?
Friends, Desperate Housewives, The L Word, Gossip Girls, Dexter.. lots more, but those are the ones I still watch up till now..

24. What's been your last purchase?

Is food counted? If not, then the Pleasures Exotic from Estee Lauder

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
I'm attracted to who they are, not what they do but sometimes some things they do, do turn me off

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Yes! ='( one of the most embarrassing moments

27. What do you do when you're at home?
Watch movies, online, sleep, blog (exactly what I'm doing)

28. What is your favourite subject?
Language, that's the one thing I can do good in.

29. What's the best thing that happened on you?
Hmmm, let's see, I'm gonna have to start from the day I was born. I'd say MY PARENTS

30. 10 person to tag: (most of the people who blogs had been tagged, there won't even be a 10)
1. Jillian
2. Melissa
3. Seven
4. Xiao Tian
5. Mindy
6. Janice

Dec27

2009-01-11T10:42:00.013+09:00

The Friends

The Family

The Game

The Sony Ericssons

The Aunty

The Cousins

The Moms

Thanks for coming, everyone!!!

Christmas 08'

2009-01-09T23:54:00.010+09:00

Christmas came sooner than I even realized it, this year's Christmas we spent it over at Kayin's just like the year before. I went out coffee with Jill and Anna while waiting for the girls to finish work, as usual we got there pretty late (after 12). But well at least we didn't miss the countdown, just like every year before we did it in the car again.. This time, we had conference call, that means alot of shouting into each other's phone and out of the car windows.

There wasn't any drinks left when we got there, after lingering around for a bit, we got into May's car to the nearest store.

My first time in her car

The seat belt is long enough for both of us

Let it go, LOL!

Seven-Eleven's

Kristi couldn't decide on the colours so she wore both green and red. First half, she was in green, then she changed to red in the car. I managed to get part of her, lets see it!

Forgot to use flash!

There! With flash!

On the other hand, at the back seat, annoying both of them at
the front was all we did

Back at Kayin's..

The drunk crazy one

Giving MK her slipper (one side only)

Wern painting her little crocsHumping almost everything around

I do like this!

I got a toothpaste and toothbrush, so there
brushing my teeth

I love Kodomo Lion

I dunno wat was that about, I fell asleep.
You tell me.

I'm still searching for the one who took this!

Smartass, having me as her pillow!

Mel woke me up to supper/breakfast in the morning,
thank goodness! was starving!

Merry X'mas, People!