Blue Sky

Such beautiful day

Wednesday is my favourite day of the week,

currently.. =)

Yet another, 29th

The hot summer days are finally here! The weather has not only been hot, but also humid! Everywhere I go, people smell like they've just came out from a strenuous workout at the gym!

I was praying for summer to come more quickly last few months, I think I'm going to regret it now. Not that I don't enjoy being tanned and all, but sweaty and sticky?! It is like having the whole steam room follow you everywhere. You're always wet, and today I couldn't even see things clearly. It was exactly like how it is in the steam room, only bit clearer.

And guess what?

It is Suit Day!

It has been just nice these few days,

thank you, C ♥

& Today, it would have been our 5th.

Damned fish!

Need I say more? ♥

So I was in the train the other day thinking, if someone smells like fish market sits right beside you and you can't stand the smell.. what would you do?

1. Get away from your seat and stand elsewhere

2. Stay there till you get off, despite the fact that you might just puke any minute

It was a hard decision, I stayed still thinking, if I stayed there and hold my breath, I would go out of breath any minute and I might suffocate and die! But if I went away, would I be hurting or embarrass that person? I mean, you might tell me it is no big deal, but if someone were to move away from me, I would most definitely feel it. Obviously, I'm no good at putting myself first when it comes to things like that. I stayed there till I get off the train. It was hell of a torture!

I've got the answer to my question,

I suppose I just need to learn to accept it.

Daddy Day 2010

Notice the cardboard on the piano chair, still there after 15years?! When I was a kid, I always wanted to take it off, it made me look better playing the piano, without it. But now, thank goodness my dad was already an OCD freak then, I have the newest looking 15years old piano chair & of course the piano, good as new!

Few years back, when we still had the greens in our home!

This whole OCD thing that runs in the family made me who I am today. So don't complain, it RUNS IN THE FAMILY! But it really isn't that bad, at least I'm clean? I remember once, I asked my dad to take this survey about coloured candies.

The survey asked, "What would you do if you had a handful of coloured candies"?

A : Put them all in a bottle.

B: Separate & put them in bottles following the colours.

Of course you've guess what my dad's answer was. This is not the only thing, but really, I find it funny! But other people seem to get annoyed at OCD people. I was folding my paper prints the other day, and my friend scolded me crazy. But I really don't understand how they could study without making it nice first!

So anyway, it was Father's Day yesterday. Daddy wasn't feeling well, poor thing. Look at him, he looked scary!

But, the smiling face is not that convincing either.

But that's okay, daddy!

I love you still!

& you're still my best friend!

Happy Father's Day!

Ew, birds!

Q: What do the little bird say to the big bird?

A: Peck on someone your own size!!

Did you know why are woodpeckers so happy?

Because, they eat whatever bugs them.

Don't you wish you could swallow anything, everything, too? HA.

Then, all problems solved! =)

Happy Happy Hop Hop!

Sometimes I feel this happiness in me that I have no clue where it comes from. They say 'happiness is short-lived', which is so true. I feel it for a few minutes, sometimes few hours. I sing, I smile for no obvious reason, I talk to myself (HAHA) then I laugh... Then of course until something has to come and spoil it. Of course that something need not be a person or a group of people, or the noisy birds. Things like, dirty laundry, messy table, untidy room, etc. get to me sometimes.

It's obvious that my mood changes like the currency exchange rate, it goes up and it goes down without any kind of warning. Don't mind the comparison, all these business related studies I do everyday now are really 'forceful'. It is like, me sitting in a car that operates on its own, driving towards "World of Business".

'Forceful', but I'm really looking forward to see what it is like when I get there.

Till then,

xoxo.

HAPPY.

Babies!

What do you call this?

I was so tempted to get this, but I could barely even fit an arm in it. Bet it'd look cute on any baby!

I want a baby!!!! I'm tired playing with dolls.

=)

Did you realize how babies always smell nice, combination of milk and powder?

What's better than a cute baby that smells good?

Movies?

So I went to the movies the other day. It was Sex and The City 2 anyway if any of you were curious. It was fabulous! Love Samantha, always the wild and fun one!

So I wasn't really looking forward to watch the movie, only because of the unpleasant experiences I had at previous cinemas I went to. It was the small & narrow, not so much like cushion seats etc. Worse than GSC, which was really unacceptable since this is Tokyo! But now I know, it was just those sucky cinemas which I don't plan to visit again.

This time, I had a big chair, almost enough to fit 2 persons! Okay.. Maybe I exaggerated a little bit, but it could at least fit more than one normal person! Which was really nice. The cinema was huge and it looked clean, I'm sort of a germ freak, so I could 'detect' germs! It may sound funny, but it's true!

Another thing is, Japanese people are always really quiet throughout the whole movie. They don't even laugh at funny scenes, not that I want to hear loud laughters or anything. But it would be nice to have someone laugh with you and be normal. I mean, normal people laugh at normal funny scenes, right? But that doesn't seem like the case, so guess what? Ever since I realized that, I giggled and laughed silently to myself at the movies. It hurts sometimes or maybe I turned purple, even!

I was sitting inside, last in the row. When the movie ended, I was all prepared to leave. But I was so surprised when nobody moved at all! 3 or 4 people went out right after, but the rest just stayed there! They were all just staring at the screen, like the credits moving up the screen were the most interesting thing they've ever seen! I'm pretty sure I've given them several hints that I'd like to get out, but nobody seemed to be bothered! So there I was, staring at them, fascinated. Until the credits on the screen came to an end, finally.. everybody started to stand up and leave.. Interesting huh?!

Summer has arrived.

Anger

ANGER :

It is like a parasite! It feeds, it sucks and it is growing in me, larger by minute. Under certain circumstances, I'm unable to talk about it. What more, fix it. So I've been playing the role of an emotionless person, which by the way, isn't easy at all. Then when I'm offstage, these emotions just start surfacing against my will. As being temperamental is unhealthy, this is one of the few things that might just help. Write it.

p/s: Screaming into a pillow is one of it too.

Screaming into a pillow still helps at this point,

but what happens when it stops working?

Damaged.

My daily challenge.

Sometimes I feel like I want to give up and run back down the ladder, which seems like a much easier thing to do. But I know I can't always take the easy way out, so here I am. Struggling everyday with the same thought in my head, looking up at the other end of the ladder, wondering...

"When, when am I ever going to get there..."

Everyday, I ask myself,

"Just how long can you stay up there?"

Everyday, I tell myself,

"I can do it"

But as days go by, it just gets harder to do.